Baby Steps

I try to be like a child in a world of adults. Being childlike is more fun than being childish. I fall a lot, but I’m learning how to enjoy the experiences, learn from them, and help others along the way. After all, the difference between a senior citizen and a toddler is only about six decades. Sometimes I get carried away and become childish. I work on my balancing act every day.

Every day is taking on new meaning for me. I take one more step every day. I intentionally step forward, but step back into regret or aside into anxiety when the way’s not clear to me.

Baby steps add up, and up, and up, one step, and one day, at a time. Looking back, or looking down, after taking many baby steps upward in the same direction makes me dizzy.

I looked back down the hole today. I’m a long way from where I started, but I’m not where I’m headed either. Today I find myself in the Valley of Pressing Words. It’s oppressive, depressing, and full of indiscriminate marketing, schemes, themes, statistics, and social vanity. I’m stopped between stops.

Time is frozen. I’m stalled, stopped, and distracted. I find myself in a valley with a dark hole in the middle. I’m trying to focus without obsessing. I’m starting to see the difference.

Seeing in the dark is not easy. Believing in the invisible is not natural. Taking baby steps of faith in a world of doubting adults makes me sad. Then I cry.

“Daddy, help me!” I cry.

“Mommy, pick me up!” I scream.

Neither mommy nor daddy heard my shouts, but I heard a whisper in the wind.

“Never fear, I’m always here. I never left you young and shall never leave you old. Take another baby step. Believe me. I have you.”

Wanna know what else I heard? It’s recorded here: Deuteronomy 31:6, Joshua 1:5-9, Psalm 37:25, 2 Corinthians 4:8-10, Hebrews 13:5

I stopped crying. My screams became songs. I got up, backed away from the hole in the middle of this valley of pressing words and looked beyond the mountains, all around. I saw through the darkness for a moment.

Knowing makes it easier to believe, see in the dark, and take one more baby step, and another, and another …